I'm Kail.
A lot of the time, you'll catch me in a daze because I'm not entirely sure where I'm at, in life, right now. I like simple things yet I never find myself to be entirely satisfied. I find joy in helping other people, I like to donate & I'm working on the 'go green' thing.

I can honestly say I do not regret anything I've ever done in my life because at one point it made me happy. I've learned so much about who I am in the last 2 years. & I know looking back I could have done things differently but I also know that I wouldn't be where I am today if it wasn't for all the choices I've made. I'm learning to let go of things that won't matter a week from today. Life is too short to hold grudges and be unhappy. My life continues to be an emotional rollercoaster but I'm doing my best for everything I've got. My son is my motivation. I go to school & work. I'm doing everything I have to in order to achieve all my goals. After being a part of 16 & Pregnant & Teen Mom I've learned to not judge people the way I used to. & I'm also learning not to care about the negative things people say. People will talk about me no matter how much I am in the public eye.

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Chaos at Kail’s House

Lately, I’ve been feeling so overwhelmed it’s not even real. I decided to write everything here because I figured, maybe, at least one person could relate.

I have school, work, a 2 year old and my puppy on a daily basis… that’s fine. I signed up for it. But then I mix in homework, bills, cooking meals, CLEANING, laundry, etc. And I feel like I can never get everything done in one day.

I’m done with school by 3 Monday, Wednesday, Friday but by time I get to homework I am still trying to watch the puppy and Isaac at the same time. My house has looked like a tornado has gone off for the past two days and looking at it makes me more crazy. Going to the gym helps relieve whatever is on my mind but I’m usually not getting to that until midnight if my boyfriend will stay here for an hour while Isaac sleeps.

The semester at school is coming to an end and I have recently started feeling like I’ll never be finished. I have changed my major 3 times in hopes that I will find something I really like and can see myself doing for a long time… but it seems that every time I get one class that is harder than my others, I drop it. Not because I can’t do it, but because I feel like I don’t have that extra time to try. Maybe that sounds awful but whatever. I already feel like I can never finish everything by myself so I would feel terrible asking someone to watch Isaac a little longer or something while I go to tutoring or try to do homework alone. AHHHHHH, I’m just so frustrated and starting to feel discouraged with the whole school thing. Sucks because it’s the one thing I always told myself and everyone I was going to do.

I understand all of these responsibilities are my own problem. I’m just venting about trying to organize them in a way where it works for me. :)

Oh, not to mention, I have people on Twitter telling me I don’t know what exhausted is because this girl goes to a university and has two kids with her husband.

Last time I checked I’m a single parent, go to school, work, have cameras in my face while I struggle, etc. (This is not me complaining, just proving a point that I am tired).

Since when did life become about arguing who is more tired anyway? I seriously wonder what goes through people’s heads sometimes… then again, they probably wonder the same thing about me.

Ok, now I’m just going on about things that nobody cares about, thanks for reading some of the bs that I have in my head. ;)

  1. gamergirlx117 reblogged this from kailynlowry and added:
    I totally agree with you; everyone has it rough, just in certain points in their life! I’m so proud of the fact you’ve...
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