Through all my frustration and feeling overwhelmed I’ve been hitting the gym and working on the Insanity 60 challenge with my boyfriend & friends. From day 1 I’ve asked Javi and my friends to help keep me motivated. When I don’t feel like working out, they push me. I know this isn’t ideal and that’s not their job but I’m so thankful they’re so supportive. I’ve heard after doing something new for 21 days it will become a habit. Even now, they push me and I’m FINALLLLLLY seeing results. This picture may be kind of ballsy because I still don’t have “that” body & I’m still not as skinny as society expects me to be. But these are my day 1 & day 30 pictures. Down 11 lbs so far.
Love it or hate it, I’m proud of myself right now and I am determined to have the body I really want.
Lately, I’ve been feeling so overwhelmed it’s not even real. I decided to write everything here because I figured, maybe, at least one person could relate.
I have school, work, a 2 year old and my puppy on a daily basis… that’s fine. I signed up for it. But then I mix in homework, bills, cooking meals, CLEANING, laundry, etc. And I feel like I can never get everything done in one day.
I’m done with school by 3 Monday, Wednesday, Friday but by time I get to homework I am still trying to watch the puppy and Isaac at the same time. My house has looked like a tornado has gone off for the past two days and looking at it makes me more crazy. Going to the gym helps relieve whatever is on my mind but I’m usually not getting to that until midnight if my boyfriend will stay here for an hour while Isaac sleeps.
The semester at school is coming to an end and I have recently started feeling like I’ll never be finished. I have changed my major 3 times in hopes that I will find something I really like and can see myself doing for a long time… but it seems that every time I get one class that is harder than my others, I drop it. Not because I can’t do it, but because I feel like I don’t have that extra time to try. Maybe that sounds awful but whatever. I already feel like I can never finish everything by myself so I would feel terrible asking someone to watch Isaac a little longer or something while I go to tutoring or try to do homework alone. AHHHHHH, I’m just so frustrated and starting to feel discouraged with the whole school thing. Sucks because it’s the one thing I always told myself and everyone I was going to do.
I understand all of these responsibilities are my own problem. I’m just venting about trying to organize them in a way where it works for me. :)
Oh, not to mention, I have people on Twitter telling me I don’t know what exhausted is because this girl goes to a university and has two kids with her husband.
Last time I checked I’m a single parent, go to school, work, have cameras in my face while I struggle, etc. (This is not me complaining, just proving a point that I am tired).
Since when did life become about arguing who is more tired anyway? I seriously wonder what goes through people’s heads sometimes… then again, they probably wonder the same thing about me.
Ok, now I’m just going on about things that nobody cares about, thanks for reading some of the bs that I have in my head. ;)